Why I can't blog.

Writing requires infinitely more patience than anything else I do. When I'm sitting on my computer I'm either playing FIFA, or wasting a lot of time on Wikipedia or something equally inane. The amount of involvement in doing something like that is really passive, all you're doing is reading, without thinking. The computer is an addiction that has prevented me from doing anything useful at law school. I don't study because most of my day is spent on my laptop. I have wasted countless days, when despite the fact that I'm sleepy, I sit on the laptop after lunch, get up for dinner and then finally turn it off at 3 am when I have a splitting headache and barely get up for class. And I do this almost every day.
Without this addicting machine, I would probably be a different person in college, I would study more and atleast look at what's going on in class. I would read a lot more, I'm actually giving up reading some awesome fiction because of this addiction. All these wikipedia marathons have given me is that I'm better at law school quizzing, because now I know more of these pop culture references which had no idea about when I came here. I can't blog because instead of mustering the effort of typing something, I go into an endless drone of randomness on the internet. Of course, whatever I've ever tried to write has seemed so self conscious and amateur I don't want to write anything.